All of us have probably gotten the "talk" from our parents, not the incredibly awkward sex talk. I mean the "we need to discuss the current living arrangement" talk". Being the oldest girl in the house, I was always told I would never be forced to move out... At least until I got married. However, there's always been an unspoken rule that you must keep your part of the house clean and you must be an active part in the family.
I have been sliding,...
Here recently, my desire to do anything outside of working, Skyping with my boyfriend, and sleeping has been non existent. It's kind of like I'm having an early midlife crisis,... Can you even have those at 19? Cause I think I am. There's a point where I thought my life was going no where, forever working in retail and chasing after a degree that keeps changing every year. All I could think was that I am a child of wrath and that's all I ever will be. However, there was a "coming to the light" moment. I came to realize that if I continue to stay on this path, depressed and no interest then yes I would stay forever in the black hole that I'm in right now.
So, I've decided to be happy. I woke up at 8:30 this morning, cleaned my room, made myself a smoothie, and cleaned the house. This is a big step, usually I don't wake up until noon or whenever I had to be at work that day. Eating has always been something on the back burner, and cleaning is the last thing I would do. I want to be happy and I want to make my family happy. I don't want to be the cause of stress of the house.
Well, until next time
I wish you a good day
